Wednesday, February 29, 2012 11:48 pm

Kerby

listen, ♥Happy 5th Birthday Baby Brother! <3

I know the celebration's a little pathetic, but I hope you've enjoyed your day out with the Brothers.

I love you Baby Brother! <3

Wednesday, February 22, 2012 11:24 pm

Longing

listen, ♥It's been 4 years.

Friday, February 17, 2012 1:51 pm

Rant

listen, ♥I dread the life I lead.

Why should I live for others and please them, instead of myself.

Call me selfish, call me evil, but I'm done here.

Sick and tired of not being appreciated by people who matter so much to me.

Thursday, February 16, 2012 11:15 pm

Life

listen, ♥Life sure has its way with us. At one point, we can be the happiest in this world and the next, we hit rock bottom, not being able to find that very glimpse of hope that we once held on to.

Ironic, yet it has proven to be the realities of life. And what I've learnt along the way, is that, we live in such an unpredictable and unkind world that our kind gestures are often being taken for granted.

Granted that we want to receive more than we give. But shouldn't there be a limit to it? I know you can't cap and calculate such things, but isn't there a limit to everyone's capabilities. There's only so much one can take, and it's unfair to always receive and not give in return. It's plain selfish.

Sometimes I wonder why we have to go through so much in life when our primary role is to live and die. If we're born and made to do things as such, then why do we try so hard to please the people around us? Why do we work so hard to sustain friendships, relationships and such. Why, just why?

Yes, I do admit that I sometimes take things for granted. I admit that I can be quite a brat in my own ways. But when it's time to listen, to ponder and to contribute, I play my part. Is it too much to ask for? To play your part. As a friend, family member or a companion. Is it too much to ask for someone to be there?

I'm not trying to whine about my role and responsibilities. But I feel that I'm giving more than I'm receiving and above all, I'm not being appreciated and treated in the best possible way. I'm only human, I have feelings. I feel hurt when people doubt me, I feel angry when people doubt me.

I've tried not to think too much about it. But the more you refuse to think or to push these thoughts back, the more they come and haunt you and breathe down your neck.

Maybe it's a girl thing and only we can comprehend with one another. But sometimes, I wish people could be more sensitive towards the things they say to others. We don't owe you a living, don't demand more than we can give. We live in the 21st century and there's gender equality for crying out loud.

Guys are better cooks and women are not limited to the kitchen. We have our own dreams and aspirations. We shouldn't be confine to the house or be told to do things the traditional way.

Screw traditions, screw conservative mindsets, screw life.

Telling myself that I'm worth more than these is like slitting my wrist a million times, right at the same spot. It doesn't hurt, gives you a sense of satisfaction, yet leaves you a scar to remind you or sometimes takes your life in return.

I seriously am tired. I feel that I've done my part no matter how others see it. I've done my best, given my all. I give more than I actually receive only to be taken for granted and honestly, this feeling sucks. Especially when you feel that the people closet to you are doing so.

I feel as though I've lost my life, my friends, my connections with the rest of the world, it seems as though I'm slowly fading into the shadows. I'm tired, I really am. I'm giving all I can, without asking for more in return. Why is it so difficult to understand?

Enough said.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 4:12 pm

Valentines

listen, ♥HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE! :D <3

Friday, February 03, 2012 5:44 pm

sarcasm

listen, ♥Best birthday surprise ever. I have the best extended family in the world. I love how nonchalant my family can be as well. Best of both worlds. (Y) Great great 21st!

Wednesday, February 01, 2012 12:36 pm

irritated

listen, ♥

The least you could do, is show a little bit of appreciation.